My dearest Chryss,

WOW! Imagine, it has been two months since we’ve been together. Two months. Two months since you lied and cheated on me. Matagal na rin pala no? Na pinagmumukha mo akong tanga, you thought you could keep it up and just remained it as a dirty little secret. Don’t worry I’m not mad at you. I never was. I’m just disappointed you turned out to be exactly as your friends warned me about. A total asshole. And yes, you deserve to be with Liz. Bagay kayo. A scheming bitch and a lying cheat. You deserved each other. Tama lang na siya yung maganda sa paningin mo, cause seriously, all your eyes could ever see is a beauty far beyond a good heart. Appearances and a trophy girlfriend is all that matters to you.

Looking back, thanks sa heart na binigay mo last Valentine’s Day. I just realized kung bakit malaki ang puso mo, kasi marami kami diyan na pilit ming isinisiksik. Kaso nakaka-OP, puro kasi mga laruan eh. Namisplaced ata ako. As far as I can remember, I am no toy or a freaking doll, I am a girl with feelings and I don’t deserve to be treated as a second rate bitch, and taken for granted like the rest of you past “toys”. Ikinagwapo mo ba yan? Wag ka mag-alala, I believe everybody deserves a second chance. I’m ONLY giving you one last chance to explain everything. Choose your words carefully because they can only be forgiven but not forgotten. Take it or leave it. 

Oh by the way, HAPPY MONTHSARY MY DEAR! :) Keep up the good work. 

With love, 

Jona

This was supposed to be my letter to him for our 2nd monthsary, it’s not an “oh-so-sweet-and-so-in-love letter”, instead a “fuck-you-ka-mamatay-ka-na letter”. HAHAHAHA. Obviously, it wasn’t that bitter to read, it was still sweet and pleasant (in some ways) but full of mockery. Pasalamat siya, mabait pa’ko sa lagay na yan. But I refused to give it to him and do what my bestfriend and I have planned (my sweet revenge) days before our special day. Coz, I’ve decided to continue our “love story” and act like I didn’t knew anything. The conversation between Nikki and him happened last Nov. 9 and we still on our “magulong-usapan-landian-walang-seryosohan-love-affair”. I just realized that “maybe” he changed and he’s feelings for me was factual.  So, I will just go with the flow and observed him as much as I can do. But I promised myself not to be so madly deeply in love with him, I’ll be more careful with my feelings now. I don’t want to feel this pain again, cause seriously, it was like I was stabbed a billion times in my heart. It hurts like fucking hell. To tell you the truth, yes, I did cried! It is not because of the idea that we might split up, but because I was so ashamed to my friends and especially to my parents.